Archive for July, 2014

It’s tough to listen to metal, sometimes, because it’s been so reviled.

Upon A Burning Body, being serious. And reviled.

I will never forget the newscasts after the Columbine shootings, when ghoulishly excited reporters combed through the shooters’ rooms, reading lyrics from CDs they had lying around and looking at closets full of black clothing.

Despite its bad reputation, however, I have always wondered if the metal=bad person debate might be a bit more of the chicken and the egg than we’re comfortable admitting.


In the past two months, my new favorite thing to listen to while lifting is the new tape by Whitechapel, Our Endless War. If you haven’t heard it…you need to. It’s amazing. Here are my two favorites from it, just in case you want to try it out.


At any rate, the fifth song on the disc, Let Me Burn, has an incredible beat, with a heavy, growly chorus “Why do I do the things I do? Why am I evil through and through?”  (You can listen here…you’re welcome.)

Whitechapel: see, look at how serious they are!

I love this song, and this album, but don’t consider myself an evil person. Much of my soul searching tends to be of the “am I really doing enough for the world around me, am I doing good things” variety. But I love this song.

Chelsea Grin, letting you know they’re serious. Except for the guy toward the back. STOP SMILING, GERALD!

So riddle me this. Are “evil” people drawn to evil sounding music? Does evil, bad sounding music bring out bad qualities in us?

I don’t think so. I think often this type of music is popular mostly because it does not offer the rougher parts of the self as areas of shame, which we cannot acknowledge in fear of losing our basic humanity. We all have bit and pieces of evil in us, negative thoughts, anger or hatred for the world around us, but the vast majority of people will never commit violence, never act on their violent thoughts, and be able to function in normal society. How refreshing, then, to have an outlet in which we can enjoy these negative aspects of our personalities without being fearful or ashamed that they will take us over and all will be lost.

The Acacia Strain is serious about it, too. So Serious.

What do you think? Do you have music that speaks to the darker side of you, lets you indulge those thoughts safely? Or do you think it promotes violence (which is where much of the research has led)?

I go both ways, especially when it comes to specific glorification of violence (the same album has a song with a chorus exhorting listeners “no one cares, kill yourself, your kids and your wife”), but I can’t help digging that nasty beat.

Maybe awareness is the key?

i had to get gas the other day.

shocking, i know.  i drive a car to work, mostly because i’m usually using my vehicle for work-related supply pickups, because i just got a new bike, and because i work in a crappy neighborhood.  and also, rain is always possible and i hate rain, amirite?

i went to a gas station in my neighborhood, where two different dudes called me baby while i was at the pump.  i walked in to pay, and said “excuse me” to the man coming out.  he said “that’s okay sexy, you go on wit your sexy little badass self.”  ugh.

stop telling women to smile

i’ve written about street harassment before, and how it raises up a bunch of conflict in me.  but i hate and have always hated being called baby or sexy in public.

for about three years i told everyone who called me baby that baby was not my name, and that this was inappropriate.  i’m tired.  i don’t like weighing the good done by telling someone to fuck off versus the vitriol and nastiness that comes my way when i don’t like “compliments.”

leave me the fuck alone.  get your gas, say excuse me like a human being, and be done.